i had enough of it. really enough.

i didnt even step out of my door for the last 8 days.

and i told you to wake me up. i need to go out. i really need.

one is too busy to care about me. another one dont wanna wake me up.

ya, both of you got more friends than me. sheryl have soooooooo many that she cannot even deal with them.

although ho dont have many girl friends. but she got alot of guy friends.

and they dont know how desperate and lonely i am.

eh, please lah. sagittarius people cannot be lock at home for so many days.

1st day, its ok, i just went out yesterday

2nd day, its ok, i just went out recently

3rd day, its really ok. i can spend a day at home watching vcds

4th day, its REALLY REALLY ok... the weekend is coming.

5th day, YEAH!! tomorrow weekend, sure can go out with sheryl.

6th day, WHAT!!?? you got cross country???? are you free in the afternoon? HUH?? you need to go choose bed for your new home... oh... then, nvm, we still got sunday....

7th day, 'sorry, i am not free today' **FLARE UP** what?!!! i thought we could go out today! ADD OIL: i moving house the next weekend, so i cant go out with you next week end also. from monday to friday, i cant go out with you cause my school ends late. FUCK YOU, i scolded..

8th day, i should be able to go out today.. 6.30p.m. **JUST WOKE UP** WHAT???!!!! sms from ho: 'i tink i won't b able to wake u up.. so when u wan meet me den tell me:)' i got so angry that my temperature went up to 200 degree celsius. i sms her this morning..... i told her, must wake me up. MUST!! IMMEDIATELY!!!! AND? WHAT I GOT? PEOPLE, YOU SCOLD ME I ALSO WANNA SCOLD HER. i send 3 sms to her, further more is 3 long sms. damn long. each one uses about 2~3 sms. yet? YET? i am god damn it disappointed. damn disappointed. so disappointed that i dont even have the mood to do anything. dont even have the mood to say fuck off. i got 2 friends, my only 2 friends. do you 2 know that you weigh alot in my heart? both do this to me. i really cant tahan. i am DEPRESSED. DEVASTATED. HOPELESS.. one know me 10 years, one know me 4 years. except my parents, you two are the only people that can open the tap of my eyes. i rarely open it. ho, you know me 4 years, i will only open the tap when i really really sad.

i 'look open' at 10.09p.m 3rd march 2008
dont wanna bring unhappy stuff with me.
hope both of my friends also.
if you hate me to the core, but dont wanna lose me as a friend, then never mind, i had made myself cool down, and i hope you do. if you dont, i cant do anything any more. if you really really dont like it, tell me. i can stop sms you, call you, bother you, stress you, scold you, hit you, talk to you or laugh with you.